Day 20
In the last 4 days in our community, we have lost 2 special people by suicide. I find this very troubling, not just because of the pain their families are experiencing but because I don’t understand it. I have wondered what happens in someone’s life that’s so bad that they cannot endure even one more day. I know life can be so hard sometimes. I’ve experienced heartache and difficulties in my life too but I have thankfully never reached that point. I’ve known of people that committed suicide that appeared to have it all together and that’s what troubles me. How susceptible am I to these thoughts? I like to think not at all but how do I know? Do I have a little more grit? Am I stronger because I have a family that loves me unconditionally but did not indulge me as I was growing up? No, I think I am weak and so are most people when the world begins to beat up on us relentlessly.
So how do I protect myself from this moment of insanity that says that life is not worth living any longer and that I will not be missed by my loved ones? The only answer that I have for me is that I want to snuggle up as close to Jesus as I can possibly be, studying His word every day and spending time in prayer with Him. No one is impervious to the attacks of Satan except Jesus. 2 Corinthians 1:3 says ‘Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles….’ I am thankful to have the comfort of God in all my troubles because I do not know what tomorrow holds. I do not know how weak life can make me or how vulnerable I really am. I don’t want to find out. All I know is that I have today to draw closer to Him, to prepare me for tomorrow. And I find peace and comfort in that.
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